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Slightly bent.
Just thought I'd let you know, when I said I had some experience at being a "broken person" it wasn't meant in a self-depreciating sort of way or anything.
"Slightly Bent" sounds nice actually, I have no problems being happy if I'm only slightly bent
I was speaking in a fairly literal sense though, as in, there is literally some damaged and broken things in my brain, which has left me with some various limitations, and that in some ways that can be helpful when it comes being able to understand the perspective of others who have also found themselves suddenly having to live within a different or unusual set of limitations due to things in their brain or body getting a bit broken.
So please don't worry, if I say something like that, it's not like, a symptom of depression or an indication that I'm feeling excessively bad about myself, etc that it might mean if it was said by a "slightly less bent" person. It's more of just an artifact of approaching concepts from a different perspective.
Just as a quick example that might help demonstrate what I'm trying to get across...
Maybe 8 years or so ago, back when I first started getting to the point where I could walk a few blocks to a nearby gas station without much danger of me getting lost or walking out in front of cars and such, my sister started putting a little bit of money into my wallet.
Her idea was sort of dual purpose, because she both felt that, 1) Even if a person can't count money, they can still be capable of understanding the concept of being "broke" enough that it can make them feel bad if they have no money at all. (Personally, I'd judge her theory as correct, at least in my case) and 2) If I had a little bit of money to spend on some ice creams or pop or whatever snacks, it could act as a bit of a reward to encourage me to go out sometimes into that scary arse world on days that I could handle it. (Again, this theory seemed to work out well).
Background out of the way now...
So I go to the store, pick out some candy or something, and the lady says how much it is and I pull out all the papers and coins and try to figure out who to like, turn the piles into what she'd said it'd cost, but my I didn't really understand money and had severe problems with math. So it'd get a bit frustrating/embarrassing and I'd be like, "Sorry it's taking so long, I'm a bit brain-damaged..." And The lady was real nice and was like "Noooo, don't say that..."
She was really nice, but it ended up that she was a bit *too* nice in a way, because when I finally gave up and was trying to let her know that I needed her to just like, count up what was needed out of my money pile and take it for me because I couldn't do it myself, it kept going back and forth between me trying to explain that my brain was *literally* damaged, and she kept trying to encourage me "not to feel bad".
It's sort of funny when I remember problems like that, but man, it could really be difficult at the time.
Anyway, just thought I'd let you know that I'm not like, "putting myself down" or anything when I say something like that.
So I happen to be a bit "broken" sort of like a person with a broken arm is "a bit broken".
My Bent-ness, well, I was probably always a little bit bent, I think that's too much a part of who I am to be able to change it even if I could.
After all. I play guitar, love FIATS, watch far too many random/obscure movies for most people to get my "reference jokes", believe in love, know far more about fixing computers than how to respond correctly in "common social situations", met a wonderful Australian woman through an online game and married her in a "renaissance themed" wedding...
Yeah, I'm always going to end up being somewhat of an oddball to most people no matter how much my brain ever heals
Take care and have a good evening sir
Just thought I'd let you know, when I said I had some experience at being a "broken person" it wasn't meant in a self-depreciating sort of way or anything.
"Slightly Bent" sounds nice actually, I have no problems being happy if I'm only slightly bent
I was speaking in a fairly literal sense though, as in, there is literally some damaged and broken things in my brain, which has left me with some various limitations, and that in some ways that can be helpful when it comes being able to understand the perspective of others who have also found themselves suddenly having to live within a different or unusual set of limitations due to things in their brain or body getting a bit broken.
So please don't worry, if I say something like that, it's not like, a symptom of depression or an indication that I'm feeling excessively bad about myself, etc that it might mean if it was said by a "slightly less bent" person. It's more of just an artifact of approaching concepts from a different perspective.
Just as a quick example that might help demonstrate what I'm trying to get across...
Maybe 8 years or so ago, back when I first started getting to the point where I could walk a few blocks to a nearby gas station without much danger of me getting lost or walking out in front of cars and such, my sister started putting a little bit of money into my wallet.
Her idea was sort of dual purpose, because she both felt that, 1) Even if a person can't count money, they can still be capable of understanding the concept of being "broke" enough that it can make them feel bad if they have no money at all. (Personally, I'd judge her theory as correct, at least in my case) and 2) If I had a little bit of money to spend on some ice creams or pop or whatever snacks, it could act as a bit of a reward to encourage me to go out sometimes into that scary arse world on days that I could handle it. (Again, this theory seemed to work out well).
Background out of the way now...
So I go to the store, pick out some candy or something, and the lady says how much it is and I pull out all the papers and coins and try to figure out who to like, turn the piles into what she'd said it'd cost, but my I didn't really understand money and had severe problems with math. So it'd get a bit frustrating/embarrassing and I'd be like, "Sorry it's taking so long, I'm a bit brain-damaged..." And The lady was real nice and was like "Noooo, don't say that..."
She was really nice, but it ended up that she was a bit *too* nice in a way, because when I finally gave up and was trying to let her know that I needed her to just like, count up what was needed out of my money pile and take it for me because I couldn't do it myself, it kept going back and forth between me trying to explain that my brain was *literally* damaged, and she kept trying to encourage me "not to feel bad".
It's sort of funny when I remember problems like that, but man, it could really be difficult at the time.
Anyway, just thought I'd let you know that I'm not like, "putting myself down" or anything when I say something like that.
So I happen to be a bit "broken" sort of like a person with a broken arm is "a bit broken".
My Bent-ness, well, I was probably always a little bit bent, I think that's too much a part of who I am to be able to change it even if I could.
After all. I play guitar, love FIATS, watch far too many random/obscure movies for most people to get my "reference jokes", believe in love, know far more about fixing computers than how to respond correctly in "common social situations", met a wonderful Australian woman through an online game and married her in a "renaissance themed" wedding...
Yeah, I'm always going to end up being somewhat of an oddball to most people no matter how much my brain ever heals
Take care and have a good evening sir
